Strength In Weakness

discipline

2009-12-03T03:09:00.002+08:00

kevin, my dearest cell leader, gave me a word last saturday...(:

at first it didn't make sense(: but i realised it did only a couple of days ago..

"the Lord is disciplining you during this period and it might be painful.."

on monday, God spoke to me, "whom I love, I discipline" - that was enough for me(:

i know what He's doing in my life, and i only pray that i'll be obedient and willing. cos my Father loves me too much to leave me just as i am. the Lord is good and gracious to all He has made. thank you Lord!

its just like our teachers in school. many of them care too much to leave us where we are.. forcing us on assignments, homework, etc is just a means of, in their opinion, ensuring a better future for us(:

don't make the mistake of misunderstanding them! or the Father..
too often circumstances paint a picture of a Father who doesn't care..
But it's through the trying moments that gold is purified, love is perfected, and we are closer to Christ(:

teach us to love Your discipline..(:

life poured out

2009-02-06T02:37:00.004+08:00

quite recently i had this image in my mind out of the blue: i was standing in front of a full band rehearsal and i was directing them through songs, worship songs. and i was sharpening the dynamics of the songs the band was playing, envisioning how it would lead the ppl into worshipping God.

one or two years back Pst James Singh prophesied 5 things over my life, a couple of them being
- hear melodies from heaven
- begin to write songs
- teach others what i know

many years back, my mum was a church keyboardist. she learned to play the keyboard in 1 month after the time the pastor told her to get ready. she was only grade 3 then. it was an instruction, not a request, and the pastor was very strict so she didn't have a choice.

initially she was very reluctant becos she's very shy by nature. during her first time playing she was so nervous that she requested for her keyboard to be placed with her back facing the audience so she wouldn't have to see their faces. i wasn't even born at this point.

after some time, there was a church split becos of disagreement in some doctrine, and my mum stopped playing. shortly after, another opportunity came for her to play as a church keyboardist, but she refused. she missed her call, and all the promises that had been spoken over her regarding her ministry as a keyboardist.

i rmb her telling me, she cried and she cried becos she knew that that opportunity was the door to her calling and greater ministry, but becos of fear she didn't want to serve. in the midst of her tears and regret, she cried out to God for a second chance: that the call of her ministry would be passed on to one of her children instead, when she had them. a few years later, i was born.

as a young child, i had always been fascinated and moved by music. music was such a compelling force that i always had to stop and listen. i felt that if i didn't listen, i would let the music down. it was strange, but true.

i was taught basic, really basic, chord triads by my mum when i was in upper pri. at that point i was beginning to give my life to God. and i had longed for a way to express my worship and devotion to Him apart from being in a church service. it was then i discovered: i could use music to worship Him.

two or three years down the road, with many days in between of unheard of hours spent on the piano everyday in worship and tears. i would take songs i heard on sun, ppl singing, all around, and find their chords and just worship. and everytime, God gave me the melodies. the improvisations. the sixes, the thirds, the fourths. everything came from Him. the knowledge that seemingly came from my head to my hands was actually first in my hands before it reached my head. ppl said it was impossible, but with God, i choose to believe its possible.

i was in Gen 7 cell then: isaiah, eunice chia, abel, kenneth, karen, ben, jensen, (more but i forgot).

isaiah heard that i could play very basic songs - he set me up to play a really rundown $200-worth keyboard that belonged to Pst Rupert for our cell grps.

1 yr later, we became zone 5.

was asked to audition for zone band, natty was the only other keyboardist who auditioned with me. i was chosen. nam as electric guit. ken as drummer. juli as bassist. zac as acoustic guit. weeshan and wendy yu as vocalists.

one or two years later, 2006, Like Crazy camp. janice fell sick on the second last day of camp, and it was the last night of the sessions for the camp. i was the person who took her place at the keyboard.

feeling weak and inadequate and insufficient, with cold trembling hands and sweaty palms, it was my first time playing for the youth ministry. little did i know, i was beginning to fulfill the call that was passed from my mum.

the following year, generations began putting me up for the youth services, to play as first keyboardist, with a 2nd keyboardist supporting me. march came, and i received a notice that i was selected to play in the Ignite Band'07.

the worship ldr was rachel gunasilan, songwriter of the song Worthy in the Revival album, from Emmanuel Assembly of God. the band was a mixture of the best musicians from various churches, but for me, i was guessing it was a subject of availability. or destiny?

the 2nd day of the ignite conference came and i was still in sch. rushed down to Bethesda church in chai chee and reached there early. night came and i was trembling. 40+ churches' youth ministries gathered to praise and worship together. it was intimidating. there was a blackout during the praise and worship but the band didnt care. it was just pure worship without the aircon and no sound, just the drums and the voices of the ppl. we perspired. but soon, the electricity returned. and that night i couldn't forget.

just this wed, it was my first time playing for a church meeting, with my senior pastor around. it was a prayer meeting. was quite unravelled at first because it was impromptu, Carol only smsed in the late afternoon. rushed down from work, and only 10mins rehearsal and the meeting started 2mins after. the praise and worship was full of mistakes, and i was getting distracted. but halfway thru i just made myself vulnerable, vulnerable to failure. and trusted Him to keep me going thru the 2 hrs. at the end it was all worthwhile, a new benchmark in my life. caleb, pst rupert, pst daphne, spoke to me after that. it seems caleb is speaking to pst daniel about letting me play for other church meetings as well as 1st and 2nd service.

many many other experiences in this ministry that i have not recorded here. but i feel the call on my life in this ministry getting clearer and clearer each time. i somehow know that one day i would be there, in front of the full band, directing them on how to lead the congregation to worship. who knows maybe even write songs.

hope this is an encouragement to everyone out there who is reading this. you're nv too inadequate or inferior to serve God. pour out your life to Him in surrender and worship, and watch Him work out destiny in your life!(:

Revival Mandate rests on us!

2007-06-18T03:28:00.000+08:00

He turns, and looks in your direction. Your're next! Come on! Get on your feet! Now is the time to run, with all your strength and all you've got. Many have gone before you, but this is your moment! So what will you do?

when Elijah's mantle fell on Elisha, Elisha did not just carry it back home. no. he started exercising it; dividing the river Jordan and crossing over.

----> now is our time to divide the waters and cross over into the next level of power, of faith, of anointing, of obedience, of devotion, of signs and wonders, into revival! it always begins with action!

there was a time when people believed in revival...many gave up, looking at the circumstances. few stayed on in faith, believing for the impossible to be realised. but God looks upon the humble and those broken in spirit with a contrite heart. when it was LEAST expected....HE RAINED DOWN ON THEM

there were two farmers who kept praying to God for rain each in their own crop fields. but only one prepared his fields for the rain to come. which do you think will produce more crop? believing is hoping, but having faith is acting on that hope. the Lord is about to send His rain, but are your fields well-ploughed and ready for it?

when revival breaks, will our church be prepared enough to respond the way God would want us to?

in order for revival to break out, there must be a praying One. how many praying Ones do we have in the church today?

the time has come for a new generation of prayer warriors, armed with the Word of God IN THEIR HEARTS, to step up to the battlefront and fight the battles that are approaching. in this mighty war there can only be one victor -- Our Lord God Almighty, The Eternal One.

RISE UP, SONS AND DAUGHTERS, FOR AN ENTIRE WORLD AWAITS YOU!

THIS IS YOUR LIFE...

2007-02-22T02:29:00.000+08:00

ARE YOU WHO YOU WANNA BE???

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is it everything you dreamed that it would be??
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are you happy where you are??
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are you struggling with your emotions??
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is this what you wanna do everyday??
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do you have broken dreams??
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do you have lost dreams??
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what do you wanna be??
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when was the last time you went all out for something??
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do you even have the answers???

-Someone went all out for you-
[wretched, condemned, despised]

-Someone did it all for you-
[sinner, hopeless, dismayed]

-Someone gave it all for you-
[broken-hearted, lost, regret]

He is something that nothing can replace, everything to me. <--------- Just Live It

3 types of people walk the face of the earth.

One type loves the status quo
Another waits for things to happen
The last makes things happen

If I were to choose, I will be in the last category.

Lord change my heart and let me be a holy sanctuary unto You. Worthy of Your Name and righteous before God and Man. I set my face like a flint towards Your call in my life becos all that matters is between me and You and nothing is ever gonna take that away from me.

(Everything rises and falls on leadership, strike the shepherd and the sheep scatter)

Have we lost the essence of being at the cutting-edge?

Have our lives grown so familiar that we know what comes tomorrow and no longer experience the adventure of the christian walk?

I may not have all the answers...but I do and will have all the determination it takes to find out.

help me lord..

feet of Jesus

2006-11-29T02:04:00.000+08:00

[hiding behind the cross] , yes, tt's the place i wanna be.

when nthg can touch me except for Christ Himself.

when the world passes me by, and grows dimmer with every moment

when everything fades before my very eyes

Your love will shine like a strong beam of light, never-failing, ever-giving

always comforting, always soothing me, nv leaving me

What can separate me from Your love?

*honest, people reading this. what can this world offer for us for what we give to it?? is it of similar magnitude to the love Christ pours on us? just to imagine the place at the feet of Him, to say it's a priviledge is an understatement. Christ did so much for us, and God continues making our lives so filled with His love. let's not deny Him the rightful reciprocation of our love :) He is ever-present, in need or out of need. He is my light and my salvation, because of Him, I do not fear evil. He is the strength of all my days. He is the shepherd who nv abandons His flock. always enduring, always persevering. it's not I who has been persevering, but Him. just to think He nv gave up...He never.

-Lord, just wanna dedicate another post to You. for always being the gracious Father who never disappoints His children. always loving and believing in me. to think You would even use such a person like me! oh God! how much, how deep is Your love and Your tender mercies! pls help me, You know my troubles and difficulties. i love You Father :)

Your child,
elisha

eagles wings

2006-11-25T02:08:00.000+08:00

here i am waiting
abide in me i pray
here i am longing for You

hide me in Your love
bring me to my knees
may i know Jesus more and more

come live in me
all my life, take over
come breathe in me
and i will rise on eagles wings

*dear Lord Jesus, be the center, be the King, the Lord of my life. every moment of my life, make it Yours. nv let any second pass in my life without Your presence! how i yearn that i'll never lose Your presence in my life! please save my best friend huawei even as i'm bringing him to church tml. bring him back to You Lord. convict him with Your love once again. oh Lord temptation has tried finding its way into my life once again. i know i shouldn't ask You to take it away, so pls lead ME not into it, and deliver me from the Evil One. help me to continue living a life that glorifies Your Name. in Your Name i pray, amen

...an unspoken word, a deliberate action, a kind compliment, a needed ear, just your very presence can touch someone else's life! don't wait till it's too late, cos u'll nv know when someone really really needs ur encouragement. so day in, day out, be ready to bless! give thanks! rejoice and exalt one another! for this is the will of our Father...